I’ve had little time for blogging lately and with the book and the launch I have truly got out of the habit.
My factual blogs on beonehealthymama.com have come easily but the ones from the heart have been harder to pull out.
Because when you have a different focus or your priorities lie in another area, the heart gets harder to hear.
I know that I am truly blessed to live the life I lead and to be able to take care of my two gorgeous boys on a daily basis.
But I can get worn down.
I can try to say no but still cram too much into what little free time I have.
And I see this reflected in a lot of Mother’s I speak too.
Successful, happy, fulfilled…but busy and worn down.
Stressing to get to the happy moments (which sometimes may be after 7pm).
And then boredom.
And the time I have been looking forward to all day is frittered away.
Without the presence I expected.
Without the joy felt.
Without the satisfaction of a good time had by all.
Sometimes it all ends in more stress and unhappy faces.
For me the lack of satisfaction lies in the expectations set up, maybe a lack of organisation and a severe lack of presence.
I am not letting the moments happen without expectation and they are unfolding the way I haven’t envisioned.
The meltdown at the “stress-free” burger dinner.
The talking back that has started.
The screaming that hasn’t stopped.
The nights you expect to sleep through but don’t.
It’s Motherhood and it’s beautiful but do you ever feel like this?